Mentally and physically, I've been exhausted. I shut down when that happens, but it doesn't mean that I accomplish anything. I haven't done anything else in the kitchen since my last post, except make a bit of a mess.
I wonder why or how it is that I can leave things without seeing them through to an end? If I trim the fat off of a steak, why are the trimmings still on the cutting mat the next morning? Why is it so hard for me to pick the mat up and scrape them into the trash?
I am NOT a lazy person. I work hard and get some amazing things done. But there is certainly a disconnect somewhere. I wish I understood it.
On a good note, I emptied all the trash and got the bin out to the curb this week. That's an accomplishment, right? I wish I could feel like all the little victories do add up and matter.
I even wonder why I care to write this blog. Does it even make a difference? Are there others who are struggling? Or am I simply a disgusting pig that is so damaged that nothing can help?
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1. You're not a disgusting pig that doesn't matter. You are an imperfect human being who needs to allow yourself grace in your failures.
ReplyDelete2. Whether someone leaves a comment or not, you are, or will be, helping someone. You may never know who it is you may be helping, nor to what degree you are helping them, but you are.
3. You can do this, There will be days it will be more difficult that you can even imagine, but you can do this. Know that YOU are worth the fight, and count every victory a victory-no matter how small!
{{{{hugs}}}}
Judy
I agree with Judy from "Confessions of a Closet Hoarder, but you can call me Judy".
ReplyDeleteHoarding, clutter, stuff or just plain overloaded is a huge issue that has many layers and one size does not fit all. Also, those with hoarding issues will not comment as usually they do not wish to draw attention to themselves due to the shame and stigma that is attached. I seldom have comments on my blog, but have had private emails on the odd occasion. Even had a person come up to me at a Christmas function once and whisper ever so quietly in my ear how much they admire me for being so brave in being open about my situation and that it helped them realise they were not alone. You can see via your statistics as to how many have looked and from where. I have had thousands from all corners of the globe look at HHH ~ quite literally from all continents. Some of the places have surprised me. Whatever helps you get this done is a good thing and will not be for nought. Keep on with your blog, as I can safely say it will be worth it in the end.
Anita from Hoarders Helping Hoarders