I Am a Hoarder, There I Have Said It

Hiding from the shame. 

I am a hoarder. 

I am ashamed. No one knows it. Some may suspect it. Most would be shocked.

That has been my life. Keeping secrets. For me to share my struggle with this, I have to keep it secret. No one would believe me anyway.

I am not yet prepared to share my story with the world, and disclose my identity while doing it. I suppose that is also part of the problem, and keeping my dirty little secret hidden from the rest of the world that knows me.  But it is how it must be.

Many have seen the television show, "The Hoarders," and find these people disgusting, lazy, and generally bad people. I have compassion for them, though I do find that some of them are much more extreme than I am.

But as been attributed to English Reformer and martyr, John Bradford, "There but for the grace of God go I."

At some point, these same people featured on the television show started out just like I have. I hesitate to label myself or anyone else, as I do not yet know enough about the condition for me to speak on it.

That is my goal with this blog. I need to learn more. I need to love myself more. I need to share more.
It is in sharing that we begin to heal.

I know that I am not alone.

And so begins my journey of allowing myself the opportunity to disclose in a way that feels safe to me. I hope that others who have gone before me will come forward and share their stories of struggle and triumph with me.

For those, who live in fear of being discovered and being shamed, I hope you will follow my journey and feel strong enough to share your own.

So, now I have said it. The rest will come in time.

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